Archive for February, 2008

vday

Saturday, February 16th, 2008
This has been sitting in my inbox since vday… didnt get a chance to post it until now
Valentine’s Day.
Jeez. Talk about totally not feeling the moment.
Don’t get me wrong, (as a lot of people tend to misinterpret me) I’m not bitter because romance in my life leaves alot to be desired. It’s not that. See today is my pop’s birthday. He would have turned 51. Sadly he didn’t even live to celebrate his 50th birthday. He died, on the eve of 2007’s new year. It’s been hard on everybody, and believe me, it’s not getting any better. I mean, me personally, I’d never get the answers to the questions that I should have asked. Mea culpa. Had a chance, didn’t take it. I was just too proud. See, I’m too much like papa.  That’s probably why we clashed so much. I didn’t want to give in. I could have, I should have, but I didn’t. Well, it’s 410 days too late, ain’t it?
Can any of you imagine never being able to put "happy" right before New Year, or Valentine’s, and mean it, ever again?
There.
I ain’t feelin’ the moment.

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stupid me strikes again

Sunday, February 3rd, 2008

You knew it. You’ve always known. You patted yourself on the back, almost two years ago, for not trying anything; for not saying anything. What the hell happened? Why now? Nothing has changed, right? You’re bound to go your separate ways again. Why did you push it? You know that nothing good can come out of it. You know that you’d end up on your knees, crawling, and hurting. Why? I stopped believing you can be that stupid, but you prove, yet again that you are well capable of stupidity beyond human boundaries. Jeez I don’t know what I’m going to with you.

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