actually galing to k whel, but i’ve read it before… mejo ganito lang kasi ung feeling ko ngaun….
She’s the one you call when you’re bored because she makes you laugh. She’s the one you talk to when you’re feeling down because she’s willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She’s not the one you call when you need a date to your company’s christmas party, or to go dancing with on a saturday night. She’s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "the one". You know, the one who you keep in the meantime.
She’s not one of the guys, not a tomboy(or rather kinda tomboy), but you dont look at her as a "real" woman either. She’s not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. Shes too laid back, too easily amused by. She’s too understanding, too comfortable - she doesnt make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But shes cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when youre lonely or horny and needs intimate female companionship, she’ll do just fine. You dont hafta wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you dont have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You’re not trying to get anything of substance outta her. She’s not easy but you know she cares about you and she’s attracted to you, and that she’l give you the intimacy you need. And you know you dont hafta explain yourself or the situation, that she’ll be able to cope with the fact that this isnt a beginning of a relationship or that there’s any possiblility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It wont bother her that you’ll get up in the morning(or after the activity) put your pants, say goodbye and go ona date with the woman you’ve been mooning over the week who finally agreed to go out with you. She’ll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She’s just sooo cool… Why cant all women be like that?!
But deep down, if you really think about it(which you proly dont because to you, the situation between the two of you isnt important enough to merit any real thought) you know that its really not fair. You know that altho she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you dont think shes good enough to spend any real time with.
Sure, its mostly her fault, because she doesnt hafta give in to your needs - she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she proly couldnt pull it off. May be she’s too short, or a lil overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead..Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman. You’ll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding and she’ll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.
She doesnt captivate ypu with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly She blends in the crowd. She’s safe. She doesnt want to be the center of attention and turnthe heads of everyone in the room. but she wants to turn someone’s head. She wants to be special to someone too. We all do. She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact she proly has a bigger and better heart than any woman you’ve ever known because she’s had a front-row seat to The-Mess-That-Is-Your-Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because altho youve given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.
Anyway, yeah. Ima meantime girl, still being one. I dunno the reason, really, and at this point i dun even care. I just want to let every guy know, who’s ever had the good fortune to have a meantime girl, that we may be a lot fun, but we cry too, a lot.
And someday we wont be around.
